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A Visit to Har
Habayit -Simeon Botwinick '06 On Monday, the 4th of Sivan (May 21), I
was part of a group of Har Etzion students led by Rav Yitzchak
Levi that had the opportunity to visit Har Habayit. This
was no haphazard, trip-on-a-whim; we had prepared by learning the relevant
halachot with Rav Levi, by discussing the history of the site and
the situation today, and by toveling the day before and the day of
in a mikva. But for all the preparation we did, I can't say I
was prepared. The visit was an overwhelming rush of conflicting
feelings. As we ascended the wooden ramp to Har Habayit, looking
down on people praying at the Kotel, it hit me where exactly we were
going: to the place, the place Jews all over the world face when
they pray, the center of the Jewish nation, the place Jews for centuries
visited on the shalosh regalim, one of which was only two days
away. The feeling of return, of visiting the place where the Jewish
people intrinsically belong was
overpowering. And yet, though my eyes wanted to see all that my
heart knew they should see, they instead were faced with the present
reality. I knew Har Habayit wasn't in Jewish control, but actually
seeing it made the churban so much more tangible. It's
one thing to know that all we have is the Kotel; it’s something entirely
different to see what we could have, sitting just beyond.
The trip was a mix of exhilaration at seeing Rav
Yitzchak Levi point out exactly where the Kodesh HaKedoshim stood,
and anguish at seeing a mosque sitting in its place. The trip was a
mix of joy at being able to visit the site towards which Jewish prayers
for centuries have been directed, and deep sadness at having to hide and
disguise our prayers. It was a mix of heartfelt righteousness at
saying the shir shel yom looking at the place where the Levi'im
said it, and a feeling of injustice at seeing tourists standing there,
laughing and taking pictures. We were unable to take siddurim, pray openly, or bow, and we had guards watching over us the entire time. Unquestionably, things are not as they should be. However, the fact remains, we are a step closer than we have been for centuries. We may have been severely restricted, but we did visit Har Habayit, the source of our nation's dreams and longings. And when we exited the area, when we all tore our shirts and danced in a circle singing bimhera beyameinu sheyibaneh, it was with real tears in my eyes that I, for the first time, really realized how important this place was to me. | |